"She Won't Lie to Me," and Other Feedback I've Received as a Psychic

 

I think that must people think being a psychic is easy. Even I, in the halcyon days of my ignoring my own intuitve feelings along with any other sort of psychicness, thought that being a professional psychic was just talking, and how hard could that be?

 

It's a lot harder than that, turns out, and no pop culture emblem of psychicness prepared me for being a psychic. I rarely love how psychics are portrayed on television, because typically they are made out to be spacey lunatics or liars who only want money and don't care what they have to say to get it. . Actually, the best, and only truly good portrayal of an intuitive that I have seen on television is Psych, which is about (stay with me) a fake psychic named Shawn Spencer.  

Shawn is super-observant, and has an incredible memory, having been trained as a child by his father to be aware of absolutely everything that was happening.  Using his recall, and his (say it with me) intuition, he is almost always right.

Continuing my train of pop culture analogies, know those movies wherein a character is really good at something, but has dreams of doing other things?  Then eventually accepts that the thing they are good at is what they have to do whether they really want to make it their lives or not? That's me, and being a psychic. If my dreams of being a paid writer that helps people and makes them laugh do not come true, at least I have my life as a psychic.

I like being a psychic, in fact, I probably even love it.  Other than the aforementioned annoying pain-in-the-ass caveat of not being psychic for myself. I love helping people; I love when I can see that there has been a shift in a client for the better in terms of healing, though I take no credit for that. Though I am super-grateful to have found a good line to be on, giving readings is not something I want to do all the time.  

If you are a sensitive person, then you know how it can be difficult to be around many people, or have to interact with people all day.  Now imagine that you are someone who is sensitive to sound. If you had very loud people interacting with you all day long, you'd probably get a headache, or at least feel worn out, right?

That's an empath, except emotions. Headaches included.  

Out of 12 feedbacks I have so far on my psychic line-specific page, 10 of them are great and say lovely things like I am wonderful, fast, helpful, amazing, all of these wonderful things which I am not focusing on while giving the reading.  My focus is, help the client.  Sometimes, help the client means, tell them what they may need to hear or shift differently to get what they want or to get through whatever they are going through.

I do not, however, say something just because someone wants me to say it.  And so, for that reason, two of my 12 feedbacks say I was rude and not helpful. In the first case, the client was trying to get me to say that someone would be with her when I didn't see that.  I didn't see it in the person she was asking about to change. So I told her that, of course. She kept asking the question in different ways, and I kept answering in the same way. After the sixth incarnation of her question, I said, "I'm sorry, but I just do not feel that you will get what you want with him."  

She posted right away that I was rude.

In the second case, the client insisted had that she had moved past a certain perspective.While a client certainly will be a better judge of how they are feeling than me, I did not see this shift in this person, and she kept trying to get me to say that I did see this change. I, in fact, saw that this person was avoiding the situation and letting the fears take over, in a way that was unfair to her and to others. So, that is what I said.  And she posted a mean feedback that I was totally unhelpful. Though she also said I was nice. 

I can understand this person's frustration.  In my view, how I saw it at the time, this person was not ready to let go of anger but was trying to convince herself that she had moved on.  We've all been there. In the past when things like this happened, with clients not hearing what they wanted, many have called me back eventually to tell me that they now agreed with what I said I was seeing and needed help to release.  

But, not these two, because they left me nasty feedback so I blocked them.  I don't like when there are unpleasant circumstances in conversation, and I am sorry these two people were unhappy.  It is likely that they interpreted me as rude and unhelpful, but in my view, that was not my intention when I was answering their questions, and that wasn't even my state of mind.  I talked to them in the same way that I talked to the ten people that thought I was great.

I'm not perfect, and there have been a few times in the past few months where PTSD and fatigue and exhaustion has clouded my own vision about what is happening to me, and I overreacted. Not with clients, but with (I guess, now former, friends).  Three different women, one was a client and an occasional friend. I honestly think she was only my friend because I was psychic. In the second instance, I ignored what I felt were little jabs and hurts over a period of months, and I finally said something.  I did it in a way that was more fiery than should have been, and I recognize that it would have been better to say something sooner.  But I didn't. 

In the most recent case, it was someone that I do occasional work for, that texted me something vague, and I thought she was deeming me irresponsible and I felt very defensive. When I was able to take a step back, I saw that she was not saying anything about me at all, and was just trying to be prepared.

I always give the advice, as you may have seen if you've read posts here before, to count to four if you are in a tense situation.  Count to four before you respond, and then respond from a place of being centered and not in anger or upset. I guess sometimes, even I can't remember to do this! These two people on the line that said I was rude, I felt that I wasn't rude, but if they experienced it as rudeness, then all I can do is count to four next time and keep a'goin.

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