Short Blurb: The Haunting of Erica's Resume

 

I don't know why I made it a goal to write on this blog daily but I did, and it feels important, and I'm going to stick to it.  However, today is a day wherein I do not know what to write.  I had a few annoying / upsetting things happen today, or rather a few things that reinforced an upset I already felt.  

Mostly what is on my mind is the feeling of rejection from last week's disappointment, as well as all the disappointments I have had in this job search.  Not so much the places that made me go through a bunch of interviews and then never contacted me again; moreso the places that haunt me with that feeling of rejection.

Such as that feeling of rejection that even comes up now when I look for jobs.  I get emails from Monster that say "Such and Such Wants Someone Like You!" and I think to myself, well, maybe someone like me. but not me specifically.  Maybe my resume is haunted. Perhaps I should try putting sage around it.  I'm actually happy with my resume, but I'm not above improving it. Is it my education?  My volunteer experience at the cat shelter?  My Mental Health First Aid Certification?  The fact that I worked at Enron (that's a true story)?

I guess what I am saying is; I have to find a way not to dread applying for things, and a way not to dread interviews, or else that will make this job hunt even worse. Or, certainly, it won't help. I have to be able to experience an an interview the way I have a conversation.  Without anxiety.  My plan for interview stress, I suppose, is to just give it my all, smile and be myself, and then obliterate it from my mind until such time that any other interview comes up.

Definitely the most troublesome interview question I have faced is, "Why do you want to work here?"  I find it difficult to prepare for that question.  It's not because I don't want to work for the company in question, it's because my work ethic is such that I give my all to it no matter what it is.  I mean, I think it is.  I actually really loved the last company I worked for, and there have been others that I didn't want to work for at all.  I still worked hard for them all.

Sometimes I want to turn it back on the interviewer and say, "Well, why do you want your paycheck?" 

Don't worry.  I'm not going to do that.  I don't think. I'm almost sure I won't do that.

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