I have a strange relationship to social media. Sometimes I love it, sometimes it's overwhelming and too much. For an empath, even websites can feel like like walking into a croweded room and picking up everyone's "stuff," or even feeling judged by the eyes of all that are on you.
I have shifted my perspective of Twitter and Facebook over the years, enough so that I can go on to those sites and not feel overwhelmed, but one thing that has never changed is my LinkedIn panic. So, last night, after I received the official employment rejection that underscored the unofficial employment rejection I got the day before, I decided to delete my LinkedIn account.
I quickly posted that if anyone wanted to contact me, do such via my Linktree, but I was going to make like a leaf and get outta there. Probably looked strange to the two or three people out of my over 500 connections that might have seen it, but it was something I needed to do.
Throughout my school-age years, no one ever wanted to pick me in gym class, which was not really that surprising since I really didn't want to be picked, other than be picked to go sit in a quiet room and read a book. I was not only picked last, I was usually assigned by the gym teacher, and welcomed with judgemental eye-rolls by the other members of my assigned team.
Being on LinkedIn felt like presenting my best self in an uncomfortable space whilst no one picked me or even glanced in my direction. The only people linking in with me these days were recruiters that would end up blowing me off after whatever interview pr position for which they were scheduling had been filled.
On Twitter, I can be my real self and make people laugh and even write the occasional quick tweet or political punditry. On Facebook, I have my friends, my family, and other like-minded nerds such as I that just want to understand why the Picard series was such a disappointment. On Instagram, I can show how pretty my dinner looks or how cute my nieces and cats are. On LinkedIn, I was always picked last for gym class.
And I'm done with that feeling. Goodbye, LinkedIn. I'll get a job without the pre and post-rejection, thank you.
Recommendation of the Day: Star Trek, the Next Conversation, a podcast about ST:TNG.
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